T e M b L o R
as a native of
san francisco i grew up with a memory, a memory not of my own, but a collective potent
memory of a city. a city destroyed one day.
that day was one hundred years ago today, when the city burned after the unfathomable temblor ravaged water mains everywhere and the infernos spread with ease. there was always the threat while growing up that it would happen again. in an abbreviated form it did, one month after i left my
beloved city with my new born baby and husband. i felt so bewildered to learn of the misfortune of my friends who lived and died during the quake. i wondered how our former apartment building fared with its tenuous structure. i had visited a college classmate the week before we left san francisco and then heard that she had died in the collapse of the oakland viaduct on that violent day in 1989. all the years of warning that the big one was coming and i had left just before it destroyed my friend's marina district apartment. my mom called the night of the earthquake to say that she could see
the city burning from her home across the bay. burning. my beloved city burning again. how could i be a native san franciscan, experiencing dozens of quakes growing up and not be there? was i
lucky to have just left? in a tiny apartment, hundreds of miles away, stacked to the ceiling with our life's contents in boxes, we were helpless but to watch in horror of the devistation on t.v.
all rebuilt or torn down now. and a more beautiful city benefits from the removal of the damaged embarcadero freeway. there have been many earthquakes in the northwest since i moved here, one good shaker occurred within a week of moving away from the white city. but i think i have a more pronounced sense of
respect for the power of the earth than the typical northwesterner. i had never seen street trees jolt back and forth like they did here in the quake of 2001. the
sound of that quake was enormous. when the quake just kept shaking (in the most persistent quake i've ever experienced) and the wine bottles in the shop next door were crashing to the ground i decided it was time to run out to the street and away from huge glass windows. an elderly woman was sobbing in the crowd gathered on the street. i tried to console her as we continued to feel the earth move under our feet. on the street i was not frightened but
exhilarated to witness the earth's power.
we moved away from san francisco to start a new life.
we wanted to stay. we adored the white city, where my son was born in the same hospital as i. walking to the legion of honor museum on weekends. buying focaccia from a bakery that made one thing, focaccia. going to molinari's deli for fresh pasta, cheese and wine. browsing and always spending too much at stout's architectural books. meeting friends for coffee at cafe roma and longing for the majolica next door at biordi. real bagels on geary street. tratoria contadina are you still there? loved your delectable pasta. satin moon
fabrics, oh, the quality! walking to baker beach, just west of the golden gate. and my beloved toscana sourdough bread with the best crust in the world. strybing arboretum for the rarest of the
rare plant sales, extraordinary lectures and picnics with friends. then across the bridge we would go to watercolor in the golden gate national recreation area in tennessee valley.
when i was in middle school i asked a family friend who had lived through the 1906 quake what it was like. as my memory of that conversation fades (why didn't i
record it?!) all i recall was that she had to cook outside (as ordered by city officials to prevent further fires) and later spent weeks in a tent city, south of the city, a far cry from her indulgent lifestyle, before she rebuilt her life in a custom designed mansion in pacific heights by the illustrious bernard maybeck. she said that enrico caruso, who had performed at the opera house the night before the quake, vowed never to return to san francisco after he survived the quake.
i am a product of san francisco. and quakes factor into my everyday life. a customary suggestion, among many, by emergency agencies when i was growing up was to always have slippers next to your bed before you go to sleep at night. they are there, every night to this day.
happy anniversary san francisco. you survived the big one of 1906 and you will
survive the next one.
(background painting above
stir, oil on canvas, 24 x 30")
probably twelve years ago i bought this eyelet fabric and faggotting with the intention of making some dainty p.j.s for my daughter. after lying in wait in the stash closet their time had come to manufacture into something else for my daughter. she had seen an eyelet skirt at a local shop that she loved and which cost around $150. knowing full well that i could easily make the same thing for nothing i went home, pulled out a pattern (also stashed away for years) that was the exact replica of the skirt in the store (three tiers of gathered fabric with an elastic waist), pulled out the fabric and at last it would all come together into something new. what i didn't expect was how delightful the marriage of the eyelet and the faggotting would be. 
cover art for the seattle review
